teens holding hands at schoolGetting Over My First Love & Broken Heart

There was a girl that I went to school with named Shawna. She moved to my school when we were in 4th grade. We hung out all the time, and went everywhere together. We were really close friends, and began wanting to be more than friends by the time we were in 9th grade. We slowly started dating. We did a lot of the things we had been doing for years.

I finally asked her to be my girlfriend. We dated for about three years.

This was my first love, and I thought we would be together forever.

I went to pick her up from a friend’s house one night. I arrived early, hoping to surprise her by taking her out to dinner.

I walked into the house and saw Shawna kissing, Daniel, another one of our friends.

I was devastated, I took off running out of the house as fast as I could. I could not think of anything but how Shawna betrayed me. Healing a broken heart is much harder than it looks on television. They make it seem bad, but nowhere close to the way I felt. I felt like there was a hole in my heart. This was the first time I had experienced a heartache.

The first few days I wanted to wake up and realize it was just a dream. How could someone I had loved for so long betray me, and with my friend? I did not eat for days, and could barely sleep. This was the worst feeling I had ever felt in my life and it was not seeming to go away. At this time I did not think my life would go on.

A few weeks went past, and I admit I felt a little better.

Things just weren’t the same without at least talking to Shawna. I just wanted to hold her again in my arms. After a few more weeks I finally started to move on with my life. Mending a broken heart takes a long time, I still had her in my mind all the time. I tried dating a few other girls, but it just didn’t feel right.

I felt like I was cheating on her still after all this time. A few more months past and I met a girl named Alexis. We hit it off and have been together for 5 years now. I still wonder about my ex girlfriend sometimes and what could have been.

Jeremy, age 23, RN